I wish I had something fun to share with you, but other than changing my blog background, watching TV and surfing the web, I didn't do anything this weekend. Instead of getting over my week long cold, it got worse. I ended up going to an urgent care on Friday, where I learned that I have an upper respiratory infection (I guess that's fancy wording for a cold) and bronchitis. I was given a high dosage of steroids and sent home with two prescriptions -- one for an overpriced nasal spray and one for a yucky cough medicine with codeine. Because I'm so annoyed about still being sick, I've been diligent about taking my medicine and done virtually nothing but rested. At least I got to watch football today, and despite how pitiful they played, my Colts won (woot woot!). I can't say I was pleased with their performance, but hey, a win is a win. There were quite a few close games today, which keeps things interesting I suppose. Now I'm just sitting here waiting until I can shove another dose of crappy cough medicine down my throat before I head to bed...can't do that until midnight though. Good times.
Well I better sign off before I bore you to death. I hope you had a much more fun-filled weekend than I did. :)
Sunday, November 30, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Thankful
Happy Thanksgiving! I was fortunate to get to spend Turkey Day with family -- many who I haven't seen in about 9 years. We visited, laughed a lot and ate a ton of yummy food. I'm so grateful to have such an awesome family. Yet, while that was great, I must admit that I'm feeling lonely today. It wasn't so bad when everyone was here, but now that they're gone, the sadness has crept in. This is the first time in 8 years that I haven't spent the holiday with Eric, and it's not easy. I guess I can't expect it to be. The holidays just don't feel like a happy time this year. So in the spirit of the holiday, and in order to stop feeling sorry for myself, I've decided to list some things that I am thankful for (in no particular order)...
1) My family - They've sacrificed a lot for me over the years, and continue to sacrifice in order to help me get back on my feet. They laugh at my silliness. They forgive me. They stand behind me ALWAYS. They value my opinion. They encourage me. They love me unconditionally. They want nothing more than for me to be happy. I know I can always come "home" and feel welcome. They respect me. They help me in any way they can. They are the best!
2) My best friend, Michelle - She is selfless and supports me no matter what. She always finds the time in her very busy "mommy" schedule to call and let me know she's thinking of me. She encourages me when I need it most. She listens without judging. She keeps me grounded. She tells me I'm beautiful when I feel ugly. She lets me vent and cry whenever I need to. She understands me. She reminds me that I deserve to be happy and loved. She shaved my legs for me when I was too sick and depressed to get out of bed...that's a true friend, and I love her dearly!
3) My good friend, Stephanie - Although I've only known her for a year and a half, she has helped me through some rough times. She helped me maintain some sanity in Idaho when I had nobody else. She's caring. She laughs at my craziness. She listens and shares. She welcomed and accepted me into her life and home from the day we met. She relates to me and my feelings. She's compassionate. She has a mouth like a trucker and makes me laugh! :)
4) Eric - Despite the current situation, I feel so grateful to have had Eric in my life these last eight years. He's given me so much to smile about. He's the best snuggler. He pretty much supported me financially for the last 2 years...always made sure I had everything I needed, even when we couldn't afford things we wanted. He encouraged me on my weight loss mission, because he wanted to me to be happy. He put up with my many mood swings over the years. He has beautiful, loving eyes. We've had so much fun together, often just hanging out being silly. He didn't get upset when I'd beat him at Wii bowling, Swing Away Golf, or Monopoly. :) He was my prince charming when I was at a really difficult crossroads in my life. He laughs at my silliness and makes me laugh as much. He loves me.
5) My life experiences - Even though there have been plenty of ups and downs, I am so grateful for the many experiences I've had. I've gotten to travel throughout the US, and to Canada, Jamaica and Mexico. I've met so many amazing people throughout my life...When I moved to California, some very generous friends let me stay with them for a couple months for free. They helped get me a job and meet new people. They helped me establish a life. I'll be eternally grateful for their kindness. My job at Western Air (Trane) opened up so many great doors for me...I made some really good friends -- co-workers, customers and vendors, got some amazing job experience, learned how to work hard and handle big responsibilities, and gained a lot of computer, marketing, sales, hvac, and business knowledge. I'm even thankful for the bad things I've experienced, because they've helped to make me who I am.
6) My education - I'm grateful for the education I received at Dalton and the couple years of college at Wayne. I learned how to be accountable for my own actions. I learned how to make friends. I learned how to speak in public. I learned enough to help me through many levels of Smarter Than a Fifth Grader and Cash Cab! :)
7) Miscellaneous - I'm thankful for sunshine, nature, hugs and kisses, dogs, music, technology, the feel of sand between my toes, makeup, slippers, holidays, french fries, seeing my niece and nephews smile, football, having a roof over my head, love, my colts blanket, the beach, toilet paper and indoor plumbing!, water, old friends and relationships, electricity, funny movies, having common sense, clothes, sweet treats, good health, compassion and sensitivity, the internet, the innocence of children, memories, laughing til my tummy hurts, gifts, summer thunderstorms, my weight loss, a warm bed to curl up in, kleenex to dry my tears, rainbows, coloring books and crayons, compliments, bike rides, my Jeep, cough drops, hot showers, passion, a sense of humor, eye candy, and much more.
...In reality, I see that I have a lot to be thankful for. I could keep adding to my list, but it's getting late, and I'm still struggling to get over this nasty cold. As an FYI, if you're reading this, I'm also thankful for you. I sincerely hope you had a nice Thanksgiving.
1) My family - They've sacrificed a lot for me over the years, and continue to sacrifice in order to help me get back on my feet. They laugh at my silliness. They forgive me. They stand behind me ALWAYS. They value my opinion. They encourage me. They love me unconditionally. They want nothing more than for me to be happy. I know I can always come "home" and feel welcome. They respect me. They help me in any way they can. They are the best!
2) My best friend, Michelle - She is selfless and supports me no matter what. She always finds the time in her very busy "mommy" schedule to call and let me know she's thinking of me. She encourages me when I need it most. She listens without judging. She keeps me grounded. She tells me I'm beautiful when I feel ugly. She lets me vent and cry whenever I need to. She understands me. She reminds me that I deserve to be happy and loved. She shaved my legs for me when I was too sick and depressed to get out of bed...that's a true friend, and I love her dearly!
3) My good friend, Stephanie - Although I've only known her for a year and a half, she has helped me through some rough times. She helped me maintain some sanity in Idaho when I had nobody else. She's caring. She laughs at my craziness. She listens and shares. She welcomed and accepted me into her life and home from the day we met. She relates to me and my feelings. She's compassionate. She has a mouth like a trucker and makes me laugh! :)
4) Eric - Despite the current situation, I feel so grateful to have had Eric in my life these last eight years. He's given me so much to smile about. He's the best snuggler. He pretty much supported me financially for the last 2 years...always made sure I had everything I needed, even when we couldn't afford things we wanted. He encouraged me on my weight loss mission, because he wanted to me to be happy. He put up with my many mood swings over the years. He has beautiful, loving eyes. We've had so much fun together, often just hanging out being silly. He didn't get upset when I'd beat him at Wii bowling, Swing Away Golf, or Monopoly. :) He was my prince charming when I was at a really difficult crossroads in my life. He laughs at my silliness and makes me laugh as much. He loves me.
5) My life experiences - Even though there have been plenty of ups and downs, I am so grateful for the many experiences I've had. I've gotten to travel throughout the US, and to Canada, Jamaica and Mexico. I've met so many amazing people throughout my life...When I moved to California, some very generous friends let me stay with them for a couple months for free. They helped get me a job and meet new people. They helped me establish a life. I'll be eternally grateful for their kindness. My job at Western Air (Trane) opened up so many great doors for me...I made some really good friends -- co-workers, customers and vendors, got some amazing job experience, learned how to work hard and handle big responsibilities, and gained a lot of computer, marketing, sales, hvac, and business knowledge. I'm even thankful for the bad things I've experienced, because they've helped to make me who I am.
6) My education - I'm grateful for the education I received at Dalton and the couple years of college at Wayne. I learned how to be accountable for my own actions. I learned how to make friends. I learned how to speak in public. I learned enough to help me through many levels of Smarter Than a Fifth Grader and Cash Cab! :)
7) Miscellaneous - I'm thankful for sunshine, nature, hugs and kisses, dogs, music, technology, the feel of sand between my toes, makeup, slippers, holidays, french fries, seeing my niece and nephews smile, football, having a roof over my head, love, my colts blanket, the beach, toilet paper and indoor plumbing!, water, old friends and relationships, electricity, funny movies, having common sense, clothes, sweet treats, good health, compassion and sensitivity, the internet, the innocence of children, memories, laughing til my tummy hurts, gifts, summer thunderstorms, my weight loss, a warm bed to curl up in, kleenex to dry my tears, rainbows, coloring books and crayons, compliments, bike rides, my Jeep, cough drops, hot showers, passion, a sense of humor, eye candy, and much more.
...In reality, I see that I have a lot to be thankful for. I could keep adding to my list, but it's getting late, and I'm still struggling to get over this nasty cold. As an FYI, if you're reading this, I'm also thankful for you. I sincerely hope you had a nice Thanksgiving.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Siblings...
For those of you who don't already know, I have one real brother and 4 other "siblings". I've posted a pic of my brother and his kiddos before, but I thought you might want to see the others too. There's Angel (half St Bernard, half Rottweiler - age 5), Chubbs (St Bernard, rescued from a really bad life, age 4), Chy-Anne (St Bernard, just rescued from a really bad life, age 2), and Sassi (St Bernard, spoiled rotten, age 1). They're all so spoiled already, but they seem to enjoy the extra attention they're getting from me!
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ANGEL
CHUBBS
CHY-ANNE
SASSI (2 PICS)
DAD WITH HIS BIG BABIES (2 PICS)
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Mission accomplished!
I stepped on the scale this morning and found that I have now lost 50 pounds! I can't even tell you how excited I am and how accomplished I feel! I'm now in a healthy weight range, according to the ideal body weight charts, and that's a huge sense of relief for me. I still plan to lose another 15 pounds by my birthday in February, and I'll continue exercising to tone and maintain my weight going forward. I'll be taking and posting some new pics soon.
And if I needed another reason to smile, I got to spend Friday and Saturday night with my brother and his kiddos, and got to see my best friend today. It's so great to be able to spend time with them again. I'm so thankful for my family and friends!
Hope you all had a great weekend!
And if I needed another reason to smile, I got to spend Friday and Saturday night with my brother and his kiddos, and got to see my best friend today. It's so great to be able to spend time with them again. I'm so thankful for my family and friends!
Hope you all had a great weekend!
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
One positive note
One positive note is that I've now lost 45 lbs!!! I had hoped to reach the 50 lb mark by Thanksgiving, but with everything that's been going on, it's been hard to stick to my regular exercise routine. I have no doubt that I'll get right back on track when I get settled in Ohio, so I'm not stressing about it. I have about 20 more lbs that I want to lose before my 30th birthday in February...After that, it'll all be about maintaining a healthy weight. It'll be nice to show my family and friends how much better I look and feel now compared to when they last saw me a year ago!
Hard times
Sorry I haven't updated my blog much lately, but things haven't been so wonderful around here. Eric and I have officially decided to take a break from our relationship, after almost 8 years together. I have to admit this is one of the most difficult things I've ever experienced, and I'm having a pretty hard time with it. The upside is that we've been getting along great and are spending as much quality time together as we can. We both agree that we love each other very much and want this to work out at some point, but with my increasing unhappiness with living in Idaho, it just isn't working right now. So I'm going to Ohio to stay with my parents for a while, and Eric's going to stay with his parents until we can figure things out. I'm very grateful that we have such wonderful families who are willing and able to help us out! Fortunately we don't care to fight over belongings or anything, so dividing things up hasn't been too bad. I've gotten rid of a lot of my stuff, as I'm driving my Jeep Liberty across the country and can't fit everything in it. Eric's parents are letting me store a few boxes at their house until we can get them shipped to Ohio -- or until we figure things out. Everything else will get crammed into my Jeep for the long drive. I'm fortunate to have my mom coming out to ride/drive back with me, so I don't have to make the trip alone. She's flying into Salt Lake City (about 3 1/2 hours south of Rexburg) at 10:05 on Monday morning, where I'll pick her up at the airport, and then we'll be on our way. I don't know if I could do this without her. I'm hoping to make it to Cheyenne, WY or even further that day, but we'll see what kind of weather conditions we encounter. If everything goes as planned, we should be in Ohio on Wednesday night. I'll probably take a couple of days to recuperate, get settled in, and visit with my family and best friend, and then I'll start working for Mom the following week. I know that this is going to be a very difficult holiday season, and to be honest I'm not really looking forward to it at all right now. But hopefully my emotions will calm down before long, and I'll be able to appreciate the things I am blessed with. It's hard to do that in tough times, but I'm sure I'll get there. Eric and I haven't really established any "rules" for this whole thing...We're just going to take it day by day and see what happens. I want more than anything for Eric to be happy, and I want to find happiness for myself as well. I also hope to learn a lot from this humbling experience, as I think that's what we're supposed to do in difficult times. Well, I suppose I should stop rambling and get back to packing and cleaning. Please keep us in your thoughts.
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